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Anita M's
NDE
EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:
I had cancer (Hodgkin's
Lymphoma), and on this morning, I could
not move. My husband rushed me to
hospital, where, after doing scans, they
diagnosed me with grade 4B lymphoma (the
highest grade). The senior oncologist
looked at my report and told my husband
that it was too late, and that my organs
were now shutting down. I only had 36
hours to live. However, the oncologist
said he would do whatever he could but
prepared my husband that I would most
likely not make it, as my organs were no
longer functioning. They started me on
a chemotherapy drip as well as oxygen,
and then they started to take tests,
particularly on my organ functions, so
that they could determine what drugs to
use.
I was drifting in
and out of consciousness during this
time, and I could feel my spirit
actually leaving my body. I saw and
heard the conversations between my
husband and the doctors taking place
outside my room, about 40 feet away down
a hallway. I was later able to verify
this conversation to my shocked
husband. Then I actually "crossed over"
to another dimension, where I was
engulfed in a total feeling of love. I
also experienced extreme clarity of why
I had the cancer, why I had come into
this life in the first place, what role
everyone in my family played in my life
in the grand scheme of things, and
generally how life works. The clarity
and understanding I obtained in this
state is almost indescribable. Words
seem to limit the experience – I was at
a place where I understood how much more
there is than what we are able to
conceive in our 3-dimensional world. I
realized what a gift life was, and that
I was surrounded by loving spiritual
beings, who were always around me even
when I did not know it.
The amount of love I felt was
overwhelming, and from this perspective,
I knew how powerful I am, and saw the
amazing possibilities we as humans are
capable of achieving during a physical
life. I found out that my purpose now
would be to live “heaven on earth” using
this new understanding, and also to
share this knowledge with other people.
However I had the choice of whether to
come back into life, or go towards
death. I was made to understand that it
was not my time, but I always had the
choice, and if I chose death, I would
not be experiencing a lot of the gifts
that the rest of my life still held in
store. One of the things I wanted to
know was that if I chose life, would I
have to come back to this sick body,
because my body was very, very sick and
the organs had stopped functioning. I
was then made to understand that if I
chose life, my body would heal very
quickly. I would see a difference in
not months or weeks, but days!
I was shown how illnesses start on an
energetic level before they become
physical. If I chose to go into life,
the cancer would be gone from my energy,
and my physical body would catch up very
quickly. I then understood that when
people have medical treatments for
illnesses, it rids the illness only from
their body but not from their energy so
the illness returns. I realized if I
went back, it would be with a very
healthy energy. Then the physical body
would catch up to the energetic
conditions very quickly and
permanently. I was given the
understanding that this applies to
anything, not only illnesses – physical
conditions, psychological conditions,
etc. I was "shown" that everything
going on in our lives was dependant on
this energy around us, created by us.
Nothing was solid - we created our
surroundings, our conditions, etc.
depending where this "energy" was at.
The clarity I received around how we get
what we do was phenomenal! It’s all
about where we are energetically. I was
made to feel that I was going to see
"proof" of this first hand if I returned
back to my body.
I know I was drifting in and out between
the two worlds, but every time I drifted
into the "other side", I was shown more
and more scenes. There was one which
showed how my life had touched all the
people in it - it was sort of like a
tapestry and showed how I affected
everyone's lives around me. There was
another which showed my brother on a
plane, having heard the news I was
dying, coming to see me (this was
verified to me as when I started to come
round, my brother was there, having just
got off a plane). I then saw a glimpse
of my brother and me and somehow seemed
to understand it was a previous life,
where I was much older than him and was
like a mother to him (in this life, he
is older than me). I saw in that life I
was very protective towards him. I
suddenly became aware he was on the
plane to come and see me, and felt "I
can't do this to him - can't let him
come and see me dead". Then I also saw
how my husband's purpose was linked to
mine, and how we had decided to come and
experience this life together. If I
went, he would probably follow soon
after.
I was made to understand that, as tests
had been taken for my organ functions
(and the results were not out yet), that
if I chose life, the results would show
that my organs were functioning
normally. If I chose death, the results
would show organ failure as the cause of
death, due to cancer. I was able to
change the outcome of the tests by my
choice!
I made my choice, and as I started to
wake up (in a very confused state, as I
could not at that time tell which side
of the veil I was on), the doctors came
rushing into the room with big smiles on
their faces saying to my family “Good
news – we got the results and her organs
are functioning – we can’t believe it!!
Her body really did seem like it had
shut down!”
After that, I began to recover rapidly.
The doctors had been waiting for me to
become stable before doing a lymph node
biopsy to track the type of cancer
cells, and they could not even find a
lymph node big enough to suggest cancer
(upon entering the hospital my body was
filled with swollen lymph nodes). They
did a bone marrow biopsy, again to find
the cancer activity so they could adjust
the chemotherapy according to the
disease, and there wasn’t any in the
bone marrow. The doctors were very
confused, but put it down to me suddenly
responding to the chemo. Because they
themselves were unable to understand
what was going on, they made me undergo
test after test, all of which I passed
with flying colors, and clearing every
test empowered me even more! I had a
full body scan, and because they could
not find anything, they made the
radiologist repeat it again!!!!
Because of my experience, I am now
sharing with everyone I know that
miracles are possible in your life every
day. After what I have seen, I realize
that absolutely anything is possible,
and that we did not come here to
suffer. Life is supposed to be great,
and we are very, very loved. The way I
look at life has changed dramatically,
and I am so glad to have been given a
second chance to experience “heaven on
earth”.
Was the kind of experience difficult to
express in words?
Yes. The experience was much more than
words can express. Putting words to it
makes the experience smaller and more
limited. What I saw, perceived, and
felt, and the clarity I experienced
about life, was more than anything we
are able to conceive, so words have not
been created to describe it.
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening
event?
I was dying of cancer, and
the doctors had said I only had about 36
hours to live. It was at this point
where I started drifting between another
dimension and this one.
At what time during the experience were
you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
Probably at the time when I was given
the choice whether to go back.
How did your highest level of
consciousness and alertness during the
experience compare to your normal every
day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than
normal
If your highest level of consciousness
and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day
consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
I was going in and out of consciousness,
so I was aware of both "sides". I was
also aware of conversations taking place
outside the room, beyond my earshot.
Did your vision differ in any way from
your normal, everyday vision (in any
aspect, such as clarity, field of
vision, colors, brightness, depth
perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects,
etc.)?
Yes I was aware that I was still in
the room - even though to others, my
eyes were closed and I was not awake, I
was still able to "see" everyone in the
room, and at the same time experience
the other dimension, as if it existed
simultaneously.
Did your hearing differ in any way from
your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to
recognize source of sound, pitch,
loudness, etc.)?Yes. I was able to hear what
was being said by the doctors and my
family outside the room, well out of
earshot.
Did you experience a separation of your
consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the
experience?
Felt tremendous love, more than
anything I have experienced on earth. I
felt very loved, like no matter what I
did, I would still be loved. I did not
have to do anything to deserve it or
prove myself.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or
enclosure?
No
Did you see a light?
No
Did you meet or see any other beings?
Yes. I was surrounded by many beings,
including my father and my best friend
who had passed on. I did not recognize
the other beings, but I knew they loved
me very much and were protecting me. I
became aware that they were there all
the time, even when I was not aware of
it.
Did you experience a review of past
events in your life?
No
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your
experience that could be verified later?
Yes. I saw and heard a conversation
taking place between my doctor and my
husband outside of my room and down a
hallway. I saw my brother on a plane
coming to see me. Both of these were
verified, including the conversation beween my doctor and husband, which I
repeated word for word.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or
otherwise distinctive locations, levels
or dimensions?
No
Did you have any sense of altered space
or time?
Yes. I felt I was in the other
dimension a lot longer than I really
was. The amount I saw and learned would
have taken a lot longer in this
dimension. Also, with the medical tests
that were done, even though the tests
were done, the results were dependant on
my choice of whether to come back into
life or not. That really changed my
concept of time!!
Did you have a sense of knowing special
knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes. The clarity was amazing! I
understood why I had the cancer, I
understood how people get what they do,
and I understood that life is a gift,
but we don't realize it. I understood
that we are very, very loved, no matter
what. We don't have to do anything to
prove ourselves to god, and there is no
"heaven" or "hell". I realized we
create our own heaven or hell here on
earth, and I learned the key ingredients
for creating my own heaven on earth!
Did you reach a boundary or limiting
physical structure?
Yes. I reached the point where I felt
I had to make the choice whether to go
back to life or onward into death. My
best friend was there (who had died of
cancer 2 years before) and she told me
that this was as far as I could go or I
would not be able to turn back. "You
have come to the edge. This is as far
as you can go" she said. "Now go back
and live your life fully and
fearlessly".
Did you become aware of future events?
Yes. I was aware my body would heal
very quickly, and it did. I was aware
that all the tests would show phenomenal
results, and they did. They found no
trace of any disease on my scans, my
biopsies, etc. My organs are
functioning normally, my appetite came
back, and I was made aware all of this
would happen. It has only been 6 months
since my NDE, and I am still awaiting
all the other gifts that were shown to
me. However, I can see my life changing
in a direction where all of this is very
possible. One of the things I saw was a
very long life ahead of me!
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or
other special gifts following the
experience you did not have prior to the
experience?
Yes. I have been much more intuitive
since the experience. When I am alone,
I often get the awareness of being
surrounded by beings (the same beings I
felt when I crossed over), and being
very, very loved - that same feeling I
got during the NDE.
Have you shared this experience with
others?
Yes. Within days after it happened, as
soon as I was well enough to talk, I
started sharing it with my close family
members - my husband, my brother (who I
had seen on the plane), my mother. We
were all very emotional and in tears.
And the were all shocked with my account
of events, the test results which I knew
would be normal because I chose to come
back, the conversations I "heard". Then
they saw the speed of my recovery, the
shock of the doctors who could no longer
find any trace of cancer - it has
changed my whole family. I also shared
with my best friend who has been by me
during this experience, and it has
changed her life too. Going out and
meeting people after coming out of
hospital changed a lot of people,
because the last they saw or heard of
me, I was on my death bed! I had looked
very, very sick, and could not walk or
breath properly at that time. Now I
looked totally healthy and normal. The
first time I walked into a group
gathering after coming out of hospital,
everyone's jaw dropped. They looked at
me as if they had seen a ghost. They
could not believe how quickly I had
recovered - everyone thought I was going
to die! Then I shared my experience
with everyone in the room, and all of
them believed me because they had seen
the "before" and "after". Some of them
said I had changed their lives.
Did you have any knowledge of near death
experience (NDE) prior to your
experience?
Yes. I have read about NDEs but never
expected to experience one. My NDE felt
completely different to anything I have
read because there was no light, tunnel,
no religious figure, and I did not see
my whole life flash before my eyes.
While I was experiencing it, I had no
idea that I was experiencing an NDE or
an out of body experience. It felt very
normal at the time. It was only after
that I realized I had slipped to another
dimension.
How did you view the reality of your
experience shortly (days to weeks) after
it happened:
Experience was definitely real I knew
it was real because nothing else could
explain the miraculous way my cancer
just disappeared from my body!!! (I have
the scans and medical tests to prove
it)! And the charge I felt from the
empowerment and the understanding -
nothing else could explain the shift I
felt in my way of thinking!
Were there one or several parts of the
experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
The whole thing was very powerful - I
cannot imagine anything more empowering
happening to me. However, two main
things impacted me - one was being able
to change the outcome of the test
results. That made me realize that
nothing is solid (or real). We can
change anything. The second thing, even
more impacting, is how my body went from
being almost dead from cancer to totally
healthy without a trace of illness in
such a short time! It not only makes me
feel that everything (including cancer)
is not real (a shift in consciousness
made it disappear!) but it also makes me
feel very powerful, and I have a totally
different understanding of life now.
How do you currently view the reality of
your experience:
Experience was definitely real. First of all, I am enjoying the wonders
of my healthy body. I haven't felt this
way in a while! Secondly, I feel very
"connected" in a way I never have
before. Sort of "guided". I don't feel
afraid of anything anymore. I know I
won't die until I complete everything I
came here to do. And even then, I am
not afraid of death. Many, many more
"coincidences" have been occurring in my
life since the experience (hence the
"guided" feeling). Things have been
falling into my lap when I have wanted
them, the right people call, I have been
bumping into the right people, getting
e-mails which answer questions I need
answered, etc. Life has just become a
lot easier, however it has only been a
few months since I have been well. I am
still feeling very high, and at the
moment am still feeling the reality of
the whole thing.
Have your relationships changed
specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes.
I have become even closer to my family,
but my social circle has changed. A lot
of my friends have drifted away from me,
but a small handful have got closer to
me than ever, and I have made a lot of
new friends since this experience.
Have your religious
beliefs/practices changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Uncertain.
I was never very religious to begin
with. I still don't believe in any
particular religion, however this has
strengthened my belief in spirituality,
and my faith in the after life, and the
power of our own higher self (soul).
Following the experience, have you had
any other events in your life,
medications or substances which
reproduced any part of the
experience?
Yes. I am able to go back to that
"connected" feeling of being loved, and
feeling the other beings surrounding me,
particularly when I am sitting still in
a quiet environment.
Did the questions asked and information
you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
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Supplementary Comments
In view of how remarkable this account
is, I e-mailed some additional questions
to Anita. Her response is below the
questions.
-Jeff, NDERF
My
questions:
1.
You write remarkably well!!! Have
you lived in any English speaking
area of the world for any period of
time?
2.
You
had Hodkin’s Lymphoma. Was this
diagnosed by biopsy? How was the
diagnosis made?
3.
How
long after the chemotherapy was
started did all the lymph nodes you
had go completely away?
4.
The
fact that the medical tests, already
done, would have their outcome
changed depending on your choice is
remarkable. If you had chosen not
to return to earth, do you have a
sense when the medical tests would
have changed- after your choice in
earthly time, or would your choice
have affected the tests at the time
the blood was drawn which, in
earthly time, I understand would
have been before you made your
choice to return to earth. Any
further comments you have on this
would be greatly appreciated.
5.
You said “It
not only makes me feel that
everything (including cancer)is not
real (a shift in consciousness made
it disappear!) but it also makes me
feel very powerful, and I have a
totally different understanding of
life now.”
As
a doctor who treats cancer, any
further insights you have on this
would be greatly appreciated.
6.
Would the doctors who treated you be
interested in communicating with
me? We would all need your prior
approval to share information about
your medical diagnosis and
treatment. If your doctors were
interested in writing up your
experience to publish it as a “case
report” in the medical literature, I
would be delighted to help in any
way that I can. This could
certainly increase the awareness of
NDE in your country.
Anita's
response:
Thank you so much for your
response, and on your
compliments to my English! I
attended a British private
school for my entire schooling
here in Hong Kong, as this used
to be a British colony up until
1997. There were British
schools set up specifically for
the children of the British
officers and most of the large
corporations in Hong Kong were
also run by British. After I
finished school, I did some
further studies in Manchester,
UK, but returned to Hong Kong
after I finished. I married
someone here, who shared a very
similar background as myself - a
fellow ethnic Indian born and
raised in Hong Kong, with no
real attachment to our parents'
native country. I have also
been working here in Hong Kong.
Before I go further, I just want
to share with you that your
e-mail gave me goose-bumps.
When I had my NDE, and I was
able to see and perceive certain
aspects of my future, I
perceived that one of the
reasons I had to go back was
because I was supposed to touch
and inspire people's lives. In
that state, I somehow knew that
I was meant to inspire
thousands, maybe tens of
thousands of people. But it was
not clear how I was meant to do
it - I just knew I was supposed
to be doing something to inspire
people. I specifically got the
feeling that I didn't need to do
anything for this to happen, I
just had to be myself and enjoy
life. Then recently, I had been
thinking about this, and now
that I am well and want to do
something productive with my
life, I have been trying to
figure out what it is I am
supposed to do that inspires
others. And this morning I got
your e-mail which said "Over the
years, tens of thousands of
people will read your experience
and, I am sure, be inspired." I
now understand why I was made to
feel I didn't have to do
anything!! I was doing it by
having the NDE!!!
Regarding your questions I am
sorry if the answers seem a bit
long, but I want to make it as
clear as possible:
About 3 and a half years ago, I
had a needle biopsy on a swollen
lymph gland at the base of my
neck where it meets my shoulder
on my left side, and the results
indicated I had Hodgkin's
Lymphoma. A scan then
preliminary staged it at 1A at
that time, however more tests
still needed to be done. If I
can explain some details, which
I did not think was necessary in
my earlier account as it had
nothing to do with the NDE
itself: My best friend had just
died of cancer - she had a
sarcoma in her chest area. The
sarcoma had been removed
surgically, and then she was
given chemo. Her physical
condition deteriorated very
badly after starting the chemo,
and continued to deteriorate
until she died. Her family felt
very strongly it was the chemo
that killed her, not the
cancer. I was with her through
her experience, and watch her
suffer through her chemo
experience, which was horrific,
and then watched her die. This
was my friend whom I had known
since grade school, and we had
grown up together. When I was
then subsequently diagnosed the
same year she died, I was
shocked, as were a lot of people
in our circle of friends. I was
very, very afraid of chemo, so
refused treatment, and went to
see a naturopath who specialized
in cancer treatment. At first,
the swollen lymph nodes seemed
to be shrinking, and we felt the
therapy was working, and I was
very happy that I would not have
to have chemo. But although
they got smaller, they did not
disappear completely. I was
living in a lot of fear at that
time - fear of the cancer, and
fear of chemo. I cleaned up my
diet, did colon therapy, and
took all the pills the
naturopathic doctor gave me.
But around 2 years ago, the
lymph nodes seemed to be growing
again, and so the doctor changed
my therapy, and also sent me to
a herbal specialist. Again, it
seemed to come under control for
a little while, but around 1
year ago, I started to develop
fluid in my chest area, and also
my left arm became swollen. My
doctor then performed a pleural
effusion, and then the fluid
came back and he performed the
effusion several more
times. During this time, my
glands were getting more and
more swollen, until January,
2006, when my health
deteriorated dramatically in a
span of 2 or 3 weeks. My
breathing became more and more
laboured, I was always out of
breath, and I needed to carry a
portable oxygen machine. I was
losing weight, I could not eat,
as I felt full all the time, my
muscles were deteriorating to
the point where I could not walk
and was using a wheelchair, I
had skin lesions which were
oozing, and by February 2, I
could not move. I could not
open my eyes, get out of bed,
let alone even walk. I just
accepted that this was it, I was
going to die, and I just
completely let go. I did not
feel any pain, or discomfort. I
was not on any medication at
that point - just a state
of total release.
My husband rushed me to
hospital, and I was assigned an
oncologist who, after examining
me, said "its too late. There
is nothing I can do." My
husband pleaded with her, and
she then relented to assign
someone else, as she felt it
would be a "waste of her time",
or perhaps she did not want my
death on her record. She was
very annoyed with my
naturopathic doctor, and felt it
was his responsibility to send
me to the hospital earlier, and
made it clear that it was "his
fault" that I was going to die.
The scans showed that the
lymphoma had spread throughout
my body, and my organs were
compromised. My feet and hands
now began to swell like
balloons, and my face was all
swollen. The oncologist said
"her organs have already shut
down - she is dying of organ
failure". Listening to my
husband's pleas, she called
another oncologist, who said to
my husband "I can't promise
anything, I'll see what I can
do. However, the next 24 hours
are critical. She is too
unstable to even perform a
biopsy to determine what drugs
to inject. We will also begin
to run the tests right away on
her organ functions as all
symptoms seem to indicate
failure." This was the
conversation that took place
outside my room, some 40 feet
away, and I heard and saw it, so
I had obviously left my body at
that time. Anyway, I then
became aware of all the needles
poking me, and some kind of
chemo drugs went into me, but I
don't know exactly what the mix
was. And I was connected to an
oxygen machine, a food tube,
something that monitored my
heart, pulse, blood pressure,
etc. etc. The next morning,
(after drifting between the two
worlds through the night and
after making my decision to come
back into life) I started to
feel more awake, and started to
feel slightly more grounded
in this world than that one, and
that was when the doctors came
in and said my organs were
showing normal function. I was
still a bit fuzzy, and said
something like "oh, I thought we
knew that already". My brother
had arrived, having been on a
plane overnight, and by that
evening, I was really awake and
ready to sit up. My whole family
started celebrating. Within 4
days, my progress was
remarkable, and I was
transferred from the ICU to a
normal private room. There was
significant reduction in my
lymph nodes within those 4
days.
Because it now looked like I was
going to make it, the doctor
called for a wound specialist to
look at my skin lesions. When
he first looked at them, he said
that surgery would be needed as
the skin had been "eaten away",
but he would wait until I became
stronger. However, my wounds
healed miraculously over the
weeks, and never needed surgery
(one on the neck and one under
the arm). About a week after
coming out of ICU, they
performed a bone marrow biopsy,
and could not find anything, and
about 10 days after that, they
performed a lymph node biopsy.
When I was sent for the lymph
node biopsy, the radiologist
could not find a lymph node big
enough to even suggest cancer,
however the oncologist pushed
him to mark a lymph node on my
body anyway which they biopsied
and found nothing. Each time, I
knew the test results were going
to be negative. The oncologist
however, wanted to run these
tests so that he could determine
what chemo drugs to use, but
since he could not find
anything, he said it is because
I am responding extremely well
to what he is currently using,
so he will keep giving me that.
I said that if the cancer seems
gone, why do I have to keep
having the chemo, but he
insisted that, even though my
recovery was remarkable, he had
to be sure to give me at least
the minimum number of cycles,
because of the state I was in
when I came in. He said he
originally thought I would need
a lot more cycles, but was now
reducing it drastically to the
minimum he ever gives which is
six. I don't know why, but I did
not suffer major side effects
from the chemo. I was so
charged by my NDE, it was as if
nothing was going to get me
down, and I now lost my fear of
the chemo, and knew that I was
going to be fine - better than
fine.
In answer to question 3, the
lymph nodes were visibly reduced
by about 80% around 4 days after
the chemo. However, the biopsy
was done about 2 weeks after
that, where they could not find
a lymph node to even suggest
cancer. They were waiting for
my body to be stronger before
conducting the biopsy, which is
why it was not done earlier.
The bone marrow biopsy was done
earlier, where they did not find
anything.
Question 4: This is one of the
points that is so hard to
express with our limited 3
dimensional language. Time
seems to have a completely
different meaning on that side.
What I felt was that all
possibilities exist
simultaneously - it just
depends which one you choose.
Sort of like being in an
elevator, where all the floors
of a building exist, but you can
choose which floor to get off
on. So if all the future
possibilities exist for me to
choose from, then I assume all
the past scenarios exist too.
So depending which future
possibility I choose, that will
also determine which past
automatically comes with it (I
chose life, so it affected the
past, choosing the appropriate
test result for the organ
function). I hope I am making
sense. It's very clear in my
thoughts, but it is hard to
write. When I was being
presented the choice, I actually
saw a vision of my lab report
which said, on the heading:
Diagnosis: Organ Failure.
Then on the body of the report:
Death
due to organ failure caused
by Hodgkin's lymphoma.
When I actually saw the report
after coming back, the sheet of
paper looked almost identical,
and the heading matched word for
word:
Diagnosis: Organ Failure,
however, the body read:
There
is no evidence of organ failure.
I actually got goosebumps
looking at that report, knowing
what it could have read.
Question 5: I now know that a
lot more exists than we are
consciously aware of or capable
of understanding. Each day, I
am understanding more and more
since the NDE. I am finding out
that there are things I now feel
I "know" or "understand", which
I never did before. The
best example I can think of is:
imagine there is a huge
warehouse, which is dark, and
you live in this warehouse with
one flashlight. Everything you
know about this warehouse is
seen through the light of this
one small flashlight. Whenever
you want to look for something,
you may or may not find it, but
it does not mean the thing does
not exist. It is there, but you
just haven't flashed your light
on it. You can only see what
your light is focused on. Then
one day, someone flicks on a
lightswitch, and for the first
time, you can see the whole
warehouse. The vastness of it
is almost overwhelming, you
can't see all the way to the
end, and you know there is more
than what you can see. But you
do see how all the products are
lined up on all the shelves, and
you notice just how many
different things there are in
the warehouse which you never
noticed, never even conceived
having existed, yet they do,
simultaneously with the things
you know existed (those are the
things your flashlight had been
able to find). Then, even when
the light switch goes back off,
nothing can take away the
understanding and clarity of
your experience. Even though
you are back to one flashlight,
you now know how to look for
things. You know what is
possible, and you even know what
to look for. You start viewing
things differently, and it is
from this new springboard that
your experiences start to
happen. And so I find that in
my daily life, I am
referring referring to different
aspects of my experience at
different times, and I am
understanding things in a
different way, and knowing
things I did not know I knew.
I saw all people as "energy",
and depending where our energy
level was, that was the world we
created for ourselves. The
understanding I gained from this
was that if cancer was not in
our "energy", then it was not in
our reality. If feeling good
about ourselves was in our
energy, then our reality would
be positive. If cancer was in
our energy, then even if
we eradicated it with modern
medicine, it would soon come
back. But if we cleared it from
our energy, the physical body
would soon follow. None of us
are as "real" or physical as we
think we are. From what I saw,
it looked like we are energy
first, and physical is only
a result of expressing our
energy. And we can change our
physical reality if we change
our energy. (Some people have
mentioned I use the term
"Vibration"). For me,
personally, I was made to feel
that in order to keep my
energy/vibration level up, I
only had to live in the moment,
enjoy every moment of life, and
use each moment to elevate the
next moment (which then elevates
my future). It is in that
moment of elevating your energy
level that you can change your
future (like my test results).
It sounds very simplistic, but
it felt very deep when I was
experiencing the understanding
of it.
Question 6: As yet, I have not
told my doctors of my NDE,
because they seem a little old
fashioned, and I don't know how
they will respond. However, I
am willing to give it a try. I
am seeing them on Thursday
morning for a general check up,
and I will broach the subject.
It had occurred to me earlier to
mention it to them, but the time
never felt right. They had
commented however, all through
my stay in hospital, at how
remarkable my recovery was. I
will keep you informed as to how
it goes with them, and as long
as they agree, I have no
problems with you communicating
with them.
I hope I have been able to
answer your questions. I am
very excited about being posted
on your site, especially at the
thought of being on the archives
of the exceptional experiences.
My brother forwarded me the link
to your site about 10 days ago,
as he started to read up on NDEs
after my experience, and I
started to fill out the
questionnaire immediately.
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